Kumplekado masyado

by John Chris S. Velarde

Isang tanong: Gaano kalawak ang Universe?
Siya nga naman, gaano ba ito kalawak? isa lang ito sa mga tanong na hindi kayang sagutin ng ating rational na pag iisip, isang katanungang hanggang ngayon ay hinahanapan natin ng butas at kasagutan.

Noong kabataan pa ng mundo, maraming na formulate ang tao na medyo " pathetic" na mga Teorya tungkol sa nasabing issue, gaya ng ang gitna ng solar system ay ang Earth; ang mundo daw ay isang flat surface na nakalutang sa napakalawak na katubigan at ang mundo daw ay pinapasan ni Atlas, pero habang tumagal, nadiskubre ng tao ang science, nalaman nila na ang mundo ay nakalutang sa malawak -> napakalawak na universe.

At doon na nga nagsimula ang pagtatanong ng tao kung gaano kalawak ang Universe, pero hindi pa pala doon nagtatapos ang lahat, kasi dahil sa kitid, este sa limitasyon ng utak ng tao, naghanap siya ng medyo madaling tanong: Sino ang gumawa sa Universe? Sa katanungang ito, dalawang teorya o masasabi nating unverified answers ang sumulpot; una dito ay: simple lang, ginawa ito ng Diyos, dito nagsimula ang pag usbong ng iba't ibang kwento kung pano ginawa ng Diyos ang lahat ng mga bagay na ating makikita, ito narin ang simula ng pag usbong ng mga pinakamalaking relihiyon na sumasamba sa pagkadamidaming diyos, (hmm) in a twisted point of view, ang unang teorya ding ito ang naging mitsa sa malawakang digmaan , na umabot sa punto ng pag abuso sa kapangyarihan ng relihiyon sa mundong ito.

Ang pangalawa naman ay ang paniniwala ng mga Ateyista at skeptiko :
Ang Universe daw ay gawa ng isang hindi makabuluhan at walang patutunguhang proseso; sa pinakasimpleng pananalita, hindi sila naniniwala na may purpose kung bakit nag eexist ang universe at naniniwala din sila sa ideyang ang universe ay produkto lamang ng "sistematikong kaguluhan" at Tsansa.

ang pangalawang teorya ay nasundan pa ng isa pang suportadong paniniwala ng mga skeptiko: ang existence ng ibang universe o ang " multiverse" at sa pagdaan ng mga dekada, nakabuo sila ng napakaraming teorya sa existence ng "multiverse" pero hanggang wala pa silang verifiable evidence na pwedeng ilantad, eto nalang siguro ang universe na ating malalaman at hanggang dito nalang siguro ang limit ng ating mga rational na pag iisip.

:)

Emotions

Emotions

By Johnny Lockheart

Her happiness makes me smile,

Her sadness causes tears in my eyes,

If only I can,

I will always stay by her side,

And I will show to her,

This feeling I have inside.

Hours have passed,

Even day and night,

But this picture of her,

Always stays on my mind.

Now that this feeling wants to burst,

And my heart suffers from love surge.

I am determined to tell her,

My feeling even it cause some sort of hurts

This feeling that I want to tell,

Might inflict me  torments from hell,

But I need to get out of my shell,

And face the girl that causes me to fell

Mystery

The dictionary defines mystery as something that is cannot be understood. In the past centuries the earth have witnessed many mysteries, some of them until now is still cannot be explained but through scientific studies, some of them are already been decoded. Let us accept the fact that we can’t still explain everything that’s why if we see something that is something strange in our eyes, we easily considered it as mystery. Let us take this as an example:  in the late 20^th century many people have claimed of seeing UFO (unidentified flying object), this is one of the classic mystery that is also adopted in sci-fi movies, even thousand years ago, many ancient people also witnessed a manifestation of UFOs, they describe it as a ball of fire or a flying chariot hovering in the sky. Based in the example, we can observed how a man describes mysteries, in the example they describe it as a ball of fire or a flying chariot because they are trying to compare what they have seen with things that are present in their time. Let us go back to UFO sightings in the 20^th centuries, people who claimed of seeing such thing they describe it as a flying saucer because what they have seen resembles to that of a flying saucer which is also present in our time.

The examples above is just a manifestations of how man sees mysteries, it is because of insufficient knowledge to understand them. Mysteries are around us and in order to understand those mysteries we must find answer about them. God have allowed us to live in this planet and our job is simple, to find truth about them, in this way it will lead us to appreciation in the Marvels that the great God have made.

Just a dream

Last night I have a dream
too good as it seems
I saw you with me holding my hand
If only you know how happy I am
me and you walking alone
feeling that this earth is our own
but then I realize
that this scene is too good to be true
because I already know
that it is impossible that there's me and you
Even in my dream I still feel pain
Thinking of you makes me go insane
I thought that only in dreamland
I will become happy
but how come having you
even just in my dream makes me feel unhappy?
maybe fate wanted to tell me
that its really impossible for you to be with me
maybe that dream is a message in disguise
because fate knows that loving you costs tears in my eyes
and lucky i am to become awakened from that scene
and lucky I am for it was just a dream.

RH bill?

Libangan na siguro talaga ng mga Pilipino ang gumawa ng bata...este..magparami, kaya nga naman ipinapasa na ngayon ng kataas taasang, kagalang galangang mga konggresman (KKK) at ng mga senador ang batas sa paggamit ng artipisyal na paraan sa pagpapaplano ng pamilya, kagaya ng condom..hmm akala ko noon lobo yang condom ,para pala yan sa family planning. Anyway, tungkol sa batas na pinapasa ng KKK ngayon, yung RH bill, yan din ang pinagdedebatehan ngayon ng Gobyerno at Simbahang Katoliko. Ang simbahang katoliko kasi ay hindi sumasang ayon sa sa RH bill kasi sabi daw ni bro ay bad daw ang gumamit ng condom pag gumawa ng baby. (hehe) ang malala pa dito ay ang banta kamo ng simbahan na i excommunicate si Pnoy kung pumayag siya sa RH bill.. uhm totoo kaya yun?..nabasa ku kasi sa wikipedia  eh..:)

So eto na yun ngayon, pipili na ako kung papanig ba ako sa RH bill o hindi. Uhm paano ba 'to...(ang hirap), kapag mag Anti RH bill  ako, para ko naring sinabi na applicable parin ang command ni God kay Adan at Eva noong panahon ng Genesis: "Go to the world and multiply" . grabe, napakarami na nga natin, Go to the world and multiply pa rin.. heheh ...well..Kapag mag Pro RH bill naman aku, sasabihan naman ako ng Imoral ng mga kakilala ko, bad talaga kasi daw yun eh, sabi ni bro.

HAHAIXT.. kung bibigyan lang aku ng power para mamili at pumasa ng ganyang klaseng batas, uhm..iisipin ko muna kung ano ang makakabuti sa nakararami. Okay lang naman talaga ang manindigan sa ating prinsipyo at mga nakasanayan but minsan, minsan lang naman, kelangan din nating gumawa ng mabigat na desisyon na labag sa ating prinsipyo. Para ka naring isang super hero na pinapipili ng Kalaban kung sino ang iyong ililigtas sa kanyang mga hostage: yung isang bus na puno ng mga walang muwang at walang kalaban labang mga bata o ang iyong Girl friend na malapit ng mahulog sa isang napakalalim na pampang pero may jetpack naman siya sa kanyang likod.. 

hahaixt RH bill.. :)










sources:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Reproductive_Health_bill 
http://anthony.nursing-resource.com/the-church-is-a-hindrance-to-rh-bill/
http://bulatlat.com/main/2010/10/09/gabriela-sponsored-rh-bill-to-provide-comprehensive-health-services-for-women/

WATCH !!!

May 21,2011…October 21, 2011…December 21,2012

Those dates are just some of the dates that some religious groups and ancient  civilization claimed that it is the End of the world or the Doomsday, those people base their predictions on their own calendar and on the bible by using some sort of mathematical equations.

A religious group based on (I think) California (if I’m not mistaken) said that the 21^st of May of this year, 2011, will be the Judgment day. According to them that on this day all humans living on the face of the Earth will suffer from a powerful earthquake that would last for 1 day( wew ) and it will be followed by three days of darkness, and according to them, all the “good guys” will be lift up to heaven and all the “bad guys” will suffer a five long months of torture, after the 5 months of terrifying moments that will be experience by the “bad guys” that will be left here, On October 21,2011 God will destroy the earth and the Universe and He will create a new heaven and Earth, The religious group who said those predictions base it on the bible (that I’m reading earlier) According to them they use some sort of mathematical computations and they also “locate “ the hidden messages on the bible.

Scientist from NASA and the Atheist, I mean..other “people who dedicated their whole life in studying science” also have their own predictions about this doomsday stuff.

They have many “scientific” predictions on how our earth will be destroyed, one of those predictions were Climate change and Asteroid Impact.

 Climate change is a long-term change in the statistical distribution of weather patterns over periods of time that range from decades to millions of years. It may be a change in the average weather conditions, or in a change of the distribution of events around that average (e.g., more or fewer extreme weather events). Climate change may be limited to a specific region, or may occur across the whole Earth.( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Climate_change). It is usually the effect of HUMAN activities that causes the amount of the Greenhouse gasses like CO₂ to increase causing our climatic condition to become HOT.

Asteroid impact J

Asteroids vary in sizes, some of them are smaller than Hawaii, some of them may be larger than the Sahara desert, and some of them may be larger that Earth ( heheh ), so just imagine its effects if it collides to us… J

Of all the predictions that I have encountered, The Mayan’s prediction is probably the most famous of all, in fact, some crazy computer users exaggerated their theory… J

Mayans are highly civilized people with stunning building structures that are still present until today. Some thousand years ago, the Mayans used an advance computation to calculate the movements of the stars and the planets, they also have their own calendar that is probably the root of the prediction of the end of the world because their calendar ends on December 21, 2012 (C’mon, its three days before my birthday), an account from the Mayan said that on the 21^st day of December in the year 2012 (base it on the Gregorian calendar) there will be a cosmic alignment that may cause some effects to earth and to us, anyway the Mayans consider that day  as a normal day.. J.

Other people also believe that on that day,(this is another prediction but it’s still anchored to the Mayan’s), a great heavenly body(probably a planet) will come nearly to earth and according to them it will cause a very destructive effect to us, maybe it could annihilate us all J They call that planet as “planet X” or Nibiru. Another research about the Myan predictions takles a different view on what will be happening on that day. They said that ecember 21,2012 is just the end of an old era and a beginning of a new one, probably we will be replace by another life forms..heheheh  J

So many predictions have been formulated throughout the ages that tell us about how the earth will be destroyed or when will be the judgement day. But let us go back to the bible where the word of God is historically recorded.

    “But of that day and hour no one know, not even the angels in heaven, Nor the Son, but only the Father. Take heed, WATCH AND PRAY; for you do not know when the time is. It is like a man going to a far country, who left his house and gave authority to his servant, and to each his work, and commanded the doorkeeper to WATCH. WATCH therefore, for you do not know when the master of the house is coming, in the evening, at midnight, at the crowing of the rooster, or in the morning- Lest , coming suddenly, he find you sleeping. And what I say to you, I say to all : WATCH”

                                                                                            Mark 13:32-37

Okay! Let us suppose that on the said dates, earth will be destroyed or one of those dates will be the day of His comeback. Why should we be afraid, he is our God, our Father and in my own point of view, there is no Father that will do something “bad” to his child. Let us just WATCH and PRAY until that day comes.

--the voice of truth says DO NOT BE AFRAID and JESUS is the voice of truth.

P.S –don’t listen to false prophets. J .

                                                                                       JOHN CHRIS S. VELARDE 

send my love to heaven (repost)

What can I say about a girl I loved since I was ten... that I love the way she laughs at me when I commit mistakes, the way she fusses over silly things and even the way she cries over some sad silly late night show...

She was my best friend and I have known her since we were small. She knew all my secrets, which reveals my feelings for her, that I love her not only because she's pretty and smart but also the way she laughs at everything and the way she sees life and love. I could still remember the first time we met; I was five years old then. It was one windy afternoon having no one to play with except for my best friend, Troy. He and his family just moved out to a neighboring state at transfer because his father got promoted. And so I climbed up our tree house, I saw a moving truck coming down the street. I watched it approaching and noticed a family station wagon following it. It stopped in front of the house and out came a family. I was about to glance away when came out the loveliest girl I've ever seen.

She was four years old that time but then even at an early age she was a beauty. She had long curly hair, which reached almost to her waist. She had fair complexion and eyes which could make a man lose his heart into them. I continued to watch her when suddenly she looked up and saw me watching them in the tree house window. I was about to duck when she smiled and waved her hand. I waved back and then watched in amazement as I saw her running towards the tree house. So I went to the edge of the ladder and said, "Would you like to come up?" she answered, "May I?" So I help her climb up and when she reached the top she then turned to me and said, "By the way, my name's Sam, what's yours?" I answered, "My name is Christopher but then you can call me Chris." She smiled and said, "Well I like your name. Hey your tree house's neat!" then I replied, "Thanks! Troy and I made this. This used to be our hide out. We used to goof around, play ball and go biking together. He was my best friend and I kind of miss him you know." She smiled and said "I'm here now, we could do things you do with Troy and I could be your new best friend too. I never had a boy for a friend before so it could be exciting to have one. I could learn how to play ball and I have my bicycle so we could go biking together. Now how does that sound to you?" I smiled and said, "Well that sounds good enough." Then she held her hand and said, "It's a deal then!"

So that's how it started. So we became best friends and it was kind of strange at first for she was a girl and there are things which I was little bit hesitant to indulge her like catching frogs, swimming in the lake and climbing trees, but then she tried and did everything just to please me. There was even a time when she fell off the bike trying to catch up with me in a race we had and I was the one who bandaged her scraped knee. I could still remember the time when she hit the window of our neighbor when we were playing baseball and it was I who talked to Mr. Chambers and promised to pay for the damage, which meant having to loose a week's allowance. I remembered the time when I fell off the tree when I tried to rescue a little kitten because Sam was near to tears when she saw the helpless kitten trapped in a branch. I even fought with the tough guy when they teased Sam and made her cry and I ended up having a black eye and a bruised cheek. I remember Sam crying as she placed an ice bag over the damaged eye and later gave it a get-well kiss. I did everything to please her and gave everything her little heart desires.

The lake was our favorite hang out. We had our Saturday swim routine. We would pack food and later eat them under the big oak tree. There was a special branch in which the two of us could sit together and tell each other's dreams. She dreams of being a Ballerina and she knows my dream of becoming a doctor. She never laughs at my dreams and pursuits even if they were quite impossible. It made me like her even more.

As years went by, I noticed that my feelings towards her were slowly changing. Somehow, I thought it was just a simple crush case. But when I started thinking about her at night, dreaming of her and having the feeling of wanting to be with her all the time, I thought it was something different, something that made me feel strange, but then it was exhilarating feeling. It made me feel so alive. Whenever our hands touch, I could feel the tingling sensation in my spine. Once when we were at the lake having our Saturday swim routine and as I carried her towards the water edge, I had the feeling of not wanting to let go. I just wanted that moment to continue hoping it would never end. I then realized I was slowly falling in love with my best friend.

Many times I tried to deny the feeling for I was scared to imagine what would happen if ever I'd try to tell her how I feel about her. I was scared because she might think that I'm taking advantage of her and our friendship. I was afraid of losing her so I just kept my feeling hidden.

We reached the age of fifteen and I noticed that Sam grew lovelier each day. How my heart aches wherever I see boys glance her way. I want to punch their noses as I watch them talking to her giving compliments, flowers and chocolates. There were times when I watch her at a distance with mixed feelings of anger and hurt! Because it hurts so much to know that there were so many things I wanted to tell her but then I could not do so. There were so many presents which I long to give her but then I could not for she might see me only as a friend. I was also scared of letting her know how I feel about her as much as losing her.

Then one day, I just learned from a friend that she already had a boyfriend. At first, I tried to convince myself that it was just a rumor. Her boyfriend was Mark, a popular senior, who was the heartthrob of the campus. She, being the cheerleader was close to the basketball team to which Mark was the captain. When I saw them walking together at the parking lot that afternoon, I watched her with my heart slowly breaking into pieces. I saw her wave at me but I just pretended not to see her for I was scared that she might see in my eyes the pain I'm feeling inside because of seeing her with another guy. Those days that followed where the saddest days of my life. How my heart aches when I see her walk by me with him at her side. Every time we meet in hallways and I see him around her, there's a feeling inside me that makes me want to grab her away from him. How it hurts to see the girl I long possess was now owned by somebody else. That special smile I long for her to cast on me was now casted on him. As she passes by me she doesn't know that I whisper the words "God how I love you."

Then one faithful day they broke up. She came too me that evening crying on my shoulder. They had a big fight and it ended up with their break up. Mixed feelings were scaring me inside. I was happy because she was free and maybe I would have the chance of telling her my true feelings for her but then I was feeling so bad because she is crying her heart out just for him. At that time, I was not quite sure of what I wanted to do.

So we found ourselves doing what we did in old days with our Saturday swim routine, spending time in our tree house. We still enjoyed doing childish pranks for we still are both young at heart. So many chances I had for me to confess my feelings for her but still I couldn't bring myself to her for I was scared of losing her once more. I once lost her, now I could not bear of losing her again by telling her, "I love her". So I just kept my feelings even if it was bursting to be expressed from my aching heart.

It was a week from our JS Prom, we were seated at the branch of an oak tree drying ourselves after our afternoon swim when she said, "I was wondering Chris if you would like to be my partner?" It just got out of my wits for it was like a dream I never thought would happen. It took me awhile to answer her, "I thought there are so many boys who would die for you to be their partner?" So she turned away and quietly said, "Well I just thought I would like to spend that night with my best friend." Then she continued in a whisper I could barely hear, "Don't you want to die just like them to be my partner Chris?" I was too stunned to speak for it came close for me to blurt my feelings for her. We… we're silent for a while until I finally whispered, "I would be happy to be your partner Sam. "The she smiled and suddenly kissed my cheek. I could hardly contain the joy I felt that time. I saw her turned red and bowed her head. Suddenly she stood up and run towards the water saying, "Last one to reach the water treats to sundae fudge!”I ran slowed up so that I would lose which meant having to have her with me for another three hours or more.

Our Prom night came. I bought a new tuxedo and poured almost the entire bottle of perfume. I went to fetch Sam. Sam's mother greeted me and I went to sit in the living room waiting for her to come down. I was talking to her father when I heard her say, "How do I look?" I look up and saw her lovelier than ever in a strapless white dress with her hair flowing around her face. I stood up and opened my mouth but found out I could not find my voice. Then I got her hand shakily fastened the corsage around her wrist and whispered, "To the loveliest girl in the whole world." She then asked, "Is that true?" I nodded and she smiled and I smiled back then I turned to open the door for her. When we arrived at the gymnasium we hardly recognized our classmates. Gone were the jeans and T-shirts. They were replaced with tuxedos and gowns. Then I held out her hand bowed and said, "Would you give me the honor of your first dance?" She laughed and curtseyed. Then I led her to the dance floor. It was like a dream coming true, a moment of enchantment. I was there dancing with the only girl I ever loved. She was smiling up to me, as we were slowly moving in a smooth gliding motion. I found myself lost as I stared down to her sparkling eyes. The curls of her long hair were like waves enhancing her beautiful face. There were so many things I wanted to tell her that moment. I wanted to tell that she was the most beautiful girl that night. I wanted to tell her that she would always be the beacon of light in my darkness, but what I wanted to tell her the most was that I love her. I drew up all my courage and bent to whisper it in her ear but suddenly the music stopped and the magic was gone. I came close to telling her, but still haven't done it.

We walked towards the table and found ourselves surrounded by friends. I asked her if she wanted a drink, she nodded and so I went to get one. It took me a long time to get one and when I returned to our table, she was gone. I asked her friend, Katie, where she was but she told me that she doesn't know. So I went to search for her. As I was searching for her, I reached the garden. There I saw two silhouette figures outlined by the moon's silvery light. They were so close to each other that I could never describe the feeling I had when I recognized the white dress that Sam was wearing that night. I just turned and left the gymnasium.

Since that night, I avoided her. Many times she tried talking to me but I never gave her the chance to do so. I was afraid to hear her say that she loves Mark and not me. I would rather have left in ignorance of her true feelings for me than to hear from those dreaded words and feel my hope crush and my heart break. I didn't return her calls. I would not see her if she comes into our house. In the hallways, as she approaches I would go to another direction. It also hurts to do those things but then I thought that was the best way to forget her. Those months were tormenting but still I kept my pride.

The day of our graduation came. I was planning to take up medicine at a neighboring state and was to move out the next day. As the program ended, she approached me and handed me a rose. As she stared at me, there was something in her eyes I couldn't describe. There was sadness in them and when she smiled it wasn't the same smile she had. I wanted to hug her at that moment, tell her that I love her but then she turned and walked away from me.

So I moved out the next day as I planned. Luckily, I was accepted at the university. I concentrated with my studies but still I think of her at night. I was always wondering if she thinks of me too. I tried hard not to think of her but still I could not stop myself from loving her. Each achievement I have was done for her. I thought that if I will be successful one day, I would be able to tell her that I love her and by that time, I'm worthy of having her.

It was a year after our graduation when I decided to return home and see her again. I thought a year is too much for me not to see her and during the past year I felt like a person lost in the desert and only the sight of her could quench the thirst I have inside. As I got off the plane, I went home directly, desperate to get to her house desperate to see her, to hug her. Then I would tell her that I missed her and that I have loved her for a long time. This time I am determined to let her know my true feelings for her and I could not contain anymore the love I have for her. I reached their house; I saw her elder sister and I approached her. I smiled at her but I noticed she didn't smile back. I was confused for she used to be a cheerful lady just like my dear Sam. I then asked, "Hi Jen! I guess you're surprised why I'm here. Well I just want to visit you and I was also hoping to see Sam. I kind of miss her you know. Mmm… by the way have you seen her?" All I saw was sadness in her eyes as she replied quietly "Come follow me."

I was confused with the way she's acting but still I followed her. As we were walking, I was trying to indulge her in a conversation but she just answered my question briefly. Then I realized that she was leading me to the direction of the lake. It was still the same as I left it, with the same oak tree, Sam and I used to climb up. I smiled upon remembering the kiss Sam gave me when I agreed to be her partner. It's been one of the happiest days in my life and I realized that I missed Sam more than I thought. Then Jen stopped walking and pointed to the tree. She then whispered, "There's Sam."

I looked at where she was pointing and saw a newly dug tomb with the name of the girl I ever loved. I could not believe at what I saw and desperately tried convincing myself that this is all just a nightmare and I would soon wake up. I stared at Jenny in disbelief with her eyes searching for explanations and she slowly started saying, "It has been a week since she died. She died of Leukemia, but even though she was sick, she never stopped thinking about you. It was even your name she uttered before she died. She asked us to bury her here for she always regards this place as a place of LOVE. She said that this is where she had spent the happiest days and that was when she was with you. By the way, she also asked me to give you this." She handed me a parcel and with that she left.

I slowly opened the parcel and saw that it contained the dried orchid from the corsage I gave her for our prom. Then at the bottom I saw a letter. It was dated last month. I opened it with shaking hands and started reading........


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I know… by this time you read this letter I'm gone. I just want to tell you that I feel very lucky and thankful to God that I had a friend like you. I would also like you to know that I had left something inside, something I kept from you all these years. I love you Chris, not in a friendly way but as one who would feel like spending the rest of my life with. I have always loved you even from the start. I guess it just bloomed each day that's why the happiest days of my life was… when you were by my side. You just don't know how I dreamed of you at night and wake up in the morning and dream no more for you were with me. When you were away, I can't stop crying because I was afraid to think that you are with another girl. I just can't bear to see you with another girl. I just want you all to myself. I may sound selfish but that's how I feel.

Each time, you held me close to you, was like a dream coming true, for to be close to you and feel your heart beating next to mine was like heaven. So many things I did so that you will learn to love me but I NEVER saw a hint. I did everything to please you because I love you so much that I even tried to fool myself that you're in love with me too. So many nights I've cried when I think of myself unloved by you. Well you might think that what I'm saying are lies but, I tell you, my heart speaks the truth for I cannot bear telling a lie to the one I love. I know you might be thinking of Mark; but I just did that to make you jealous, to make you see me as a young woman, capable of loving and not as the little girl you used to play with. Sometimes I imagined that you were jealous and fooled myself that it was a sign that you feel something for me too. When Mark and I broke up and I came crying, I just did that to know… how you would react and with that I'll know that you love me too. But I failed for you didn't give me any clue. When our prom night came, you just don't know how happy I was when you handed me the corsage and saying that I was the loveliest girl in the whole world. While we were dancing, I wanted so desperately to hear you say that you love me too but you NEVER did. When Mark came and pleaded me to give him a second chance, I was scared that you might see us talking. I didn't want you to get the wrong impression so I told him we would talk in the garden. There I explained to him that it's you whom I really love.

What happened next was that I found you missing and later learned that you were searching for me, I just concluded that you saw us together. The next day, I tried to explain but then you never gave me a chance to do so. You continuously avoided me and never knew how much pain I've experienced that time. I felt the world crushing on me. In our Graduation day, when I approached you, I wanted to tell you… how much I loved you but I decided that I just couldn't do it. I could not bear to hear that all you feel for me is just brotherly hand of love. For I want you to love me as a woman and not as a girl or playmate. So I just turned away and left.

Now that saying I LOVE YOU might be too late, but still I want you to know that I will always love you and my heart has always been and will be yours alone.

P.S.: Think of me sometimes... and always remember that loving you was the best thing that ever happened in my life.

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I felt my tears falling as I folded the letter. I wanted to shout out to let her know that I love her, if not as much, but more than she did for me. I love her more than anything in this world. I knelt touching the soil of her grave and rain started to fall. I continued crying softly and whispered, "Oh God, send my love to heaven."

DISCLAIMER: I am not the original author of this story. I just posted this on my blog to keep this as a treasured collection. SO please refrain from commenting about the integrity and the honesty virtues.